Overheard

Today, at a nationally known coffee place I heard the following snippet of conversation as a trendy, wannabe guy walked in:

..."I am so irritated, that I cannot even have caffeine right now".

He proceeds to hang up his cell phone and exclaim loudly at the woman behind the counter:

"Do you have any milkshakes?"

"We have frappuccino's"

"Is there any caffeine in it?"

"Yes, plus..." (and she lists what is in one)

"Well, can I just get a chocolate milkshake?"

At that point, I looked at my friend as we were both smirking and said to him that I had to get out of there before I laughed so hard and loud that it would be quite embarrassing. He agreed with me and as I turned to leave, I caught one of the other employees eyes as they just rolled back as if to say: Can you believe this idiot?

Laughing quietly, we left.

4 Days in January

So, the last few weeks have not been the most pleasant picnic that you could imagine. Stresses of work & the holidays in general have taken a heavy toll on me as one would expect, but it has been another reality that has hit me in the face harder than I wanted...but this was all under my control.

I had to make some decisions that I had never made before and while they hurt me terribly, they were the correct ones. Standing on solid ground feels good- especially when it is a foundation that you created. The pain is still there though and it will linger on for the foreseeable future.

I had a friend come to visit me this weekend. It has been the nicest number of days off that I can remember in a long time. It could not have been better. Getting me out of my house was easier than I thought. I experienced things and feelings that have been dormant and I wonder why I have sequestered myself for so long. I have also been able to talk about events of the past months or so with positive feedback for my actions given to me. Reinforcement of difficulties that I had a hand in creating, but ended on my own terms has been gratifying.

I am taking my friend to the airport later today. I am saddened that the trip was so short and our distance apart is so great, but I find my heart less heavy with new strength to continue on.