Sunday, September 30, 2007

Notes on “Dead Boys”

I’ve always said that I’d rather take a punch than get a paper cut. Paper cuts suck. The worst ones near your fingernails really suck. The worst I ever had was in junior high when I was day dreaming in class in stead of paying attention. Paper in hand, I was holding it near my face for a reason that I cannot remember and I proceeded to rub it across the under part of my nose near the top of my lip. The pain it caused haunts me to this day.

Dead Boys is a book of L.A. based short stories by Richard Lange. This is not your glamorous Hollywood variety of mini-prose nor is it crime riddled with “the cops / the D.A.” f*cked me kind of stories either. These are cross sections in the underbelly- people getting by; alcoholic; riddled with despair; criminal; failure; loss. Tee-totaling near the edge of reason, some of the characters cannot possibly function on a day to day basis, yet they wake up for another taste of bars that open at six A.M. or relationships that creep by in mind numbing uneasiness. They live in the minute to minute moments of their lives- minds always thinking, always moving, and seeing everything near the edge of madness.

A man takes his teenage junkie/prostitute roommate across town to get married to her pimp only to have his car break down near the very bridge where he is hounded by the memory of a savage and unexplained personal tragedy.

An advertising guy ends a letter to an old classmate who lives in Alaska with the following: “Remember how you said it’s dark there six months out of the year? Well, it’s dark here all the time. P.S. Don’t write back.”

Dead Boys is like that paper cut I self-inflicted as a teenager- the difference is you have to add sand and rubbing alcohol into the mix. Brutally honest about what lives are like on the far end of the spectrum, Richard Lange taps into a vein you want to hit again & again.

Saturday, September 29, 2007

Employee Review

I received my employee review today. It is extremely nice to know that you are well thought of. I maxed out my review in all areas and received a higher than normal raise. I wish I was younger and had the desire to move up in the company because the opportunities are there for me- very high ones. If only…

Friday, September 28, 2007

NFL 2007 Predictions

I know I am nearly a month late in posting this, but these are my real picks for this season. You know it must be true because of who I have in the Super Bowl and how much they are sucking right now.

NFC

East

1st Dallas

2nd Philadelphia

3rd New York

4th Washington

North

1st Chicago

2nd Detroit

3rd Green Bay

4th Minnesota

South

1st New Orleans

2nd Carolina

3rd Tampa Bay

4th Atlanta

West

1st San Francisco

2nd St. Louis

3rd Seattle

4th Arizona

AFC

1st New England

2nd New York

3rd Buffalo

4th Miami

North

1st Pittsburg

2nd Baltimore

3rd Cincinnati

4th Cleveland

South

1st Indianapolis

2nd Tennessee

3rd Jacksonville

4th Houston

West

1st San Diego

2nd Denver

3rd Kansas City

4th Oakland


Playoff Seeds

NFC

Chicago (1)

New Orleans (2)

Dallas (3)

San Francisco (4)

St. Louis (5) WC

Carolina (6) WC

AFC

New England (1)

San Diego (2)

Indianapolis (3)

Pittsburg (4)

Baltimore (5) WC

Denver (6) WC

Playoffs

NFC

Dallas over Carolina

St. Louis over San Francisco

Chicago over Dallas

New Orleans over St. Louis

Chicago over New Orleans

AFC

Baltimore over Indianapolis

Denver over Pittsburg

New England over Baltimore

San Diego over Denver

San Diego over New England


Super Bowl

Chicago over San Diego

Yes, I picked Chicago as my pre-season Super Bowl champions. They just got toasted by Dallas the other night & they have a big quarterback issues going on. Dallas vs. New England is looking better all the time.

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Fall in the Southwest

It is days like the last few that makes this miserably hot place worthwhile to live in. Finally, I can sleep with my window open for the crisp night air. One day, I won't live in this state anymore and I will get to experience a real fall as well- leaves, frost, and layers of clothes. I cannot wait!

Saturday, August 25, 2007

What a night/day/life


Leonard Cohen

But I'm always alone.
And my heart is like ice.
And it's crowded and cold...


I cannot take credit for the words, but that is certainly how I feel right now.

Mirrors

Is there any object in the world ever created that is more damaging than a mirror?

When man first looked into a pool of water, he became aware of himself. Once that awareness became a part of his consciousness, vanity appeared. Vanity makes us love. Makes us hate. Makes us long. Makes us vain… a concept born out of simple vision. You look in a mirror and see everything you love and hate about yourself.

Monday, August 13, 2007

Numb

I read a short story the other day. It was called ________ ____ written by ______ _____. In it, a man does the thing that people do: he works, he gets married, and he works some more and yet there is unhappiness in him. Marriage does not make him happy nor does his divorce. He loses someone very close to him yet he struggles on into the growing numbness of his life.

Later on as he ages, he finds a kindred spirit who only wants the quietness that he has lead- no more, no less. He finds a happy medium that surprises him, yet still lacks the fulfillment that he does not know he has already. Again, tragedy strikes and he finds himself alone again in reflection of his life and loss. He has no financial burdens in retirement with investments well made, but nothing else to show his heart that life was, had been or could be okay for him. He just has the silence of the water and land around him to contemplate.

As I finished reading this, I wondered if this was all there was in life: a series of disappointments to make you wonder if it was worth it. More and more, I feel that this is exactly what life is like for many of us. We slave away at jobs we despise no matter the good or bad amounts of pay we receive in return. We date & marry people we don’t love and miss out on the ones you do. We rarely take time to smell the roses as they say. Nearly every one I know needs more time off after their week of vacation because it was an actual chore, yes A CHORE to be on vacation. My generation has loads of people my age still trying to figure out what they are going to do with their life- some of them still from the safe environs of their parent's house (and I’ve been there). How many of you can say you are truly happy or just bitter? I bet a good lot of you vote for the latter more than the former.

I am just like you ______ _____.

Saturday, August 04, 2007

Jekyll

Just finished watching the series premiere of “Jekyll” on BBC America.

Brilliantly done.

James Nesbitt does a fantastic job at playing opposites: As Dr. Jackman, you can tell that there is something not right with him quickly and of course as the creepy, violent & devilishly wonderful Mr. Hyde, he keeps you on the edge of your seat every time he comes popping around to make a mess of things.

And those evil, black eyes…
something to give you nightmares.

Thursday, July 19, 2007

Giving Barry His Due


After reading Rick Reilly's piece on Barry Bonds, I found myself torn:
torn between the tremendous amount of joy & laughter the column gave
me, and the sadness that I felt afterward when thinking about Hank
Aaron. As fans of American sports (our self-proclaimed National
Pastime), we've missed out on celebrating one of our greatest sports
heroes- maybe one of our greatest American heroes. Mr. Aaron never
was the Mr. Coffee ad man like Mickey Mantle nor was he loved publicly
like Mr. October- Reggie Jackson. Hank Aaron, in his time, was known
as the "black man" who broke a white man's seemingly unbreakable
record.

As a fan of baseball since childhood, I find myself at __ years of age
in awe of the accomplishments Mr. Aaron achieved on the field, yet I
know little of him as a person off the field. Everything I can read
about and see in interviews tells me what I need to know Hank Aaron as
a person: With dignity & seemingly insurmountable cultural & personal
odds, he achieved what was then unthinkable. Hank Aaron was human
and withstood personal affronts that is despicable & inexcusable in
our age of 24/7 media and so called advances in race relations.
Frankly, I am ashamed that it has taken over thirty years for our
society, which views sports achievement as an ultimate pantheon to
success to recognize Hank Aaron for the class act that he always was-
not to mention that he shatter a record that stood for DECADES.

Records are made to be broken and in this ho-hum chase of the only
baseball record that matters, I am saddened that Hank Aaron will have
to have the asterisk beside his tally of 755 just as Roger Maris did
with 61. With great effort, comes great sacrifice.

Barry, look in the mirror and tell us all what did you ever do to

justify your efforts- proven or not?